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slm hye my baby..i miss you a lot..miss you like i miss my first love :(

i'm so sorry sbb dh lme x post story..lately, I've been busy with my assignment..sgt byk ok..sume subjects need to use journal..now, let's continue to my story...hehe..do you mind?
in deep of my heart, sy admit sy rndu die..rse cm nk jmpe die..tp now,it's impossible to meet him...die dh brtunag..sy byk hbiskn mse sndri=lone ranger..xde kwn2 yg mcm dlu.. boleh wt sy lupe die..tp ni xde kwn sgt,trase gile yg die mmg dh xde untuk sy,die dh xde dkt ngn sy mcm dlu...that's why la sy rndu je die..tp x tau nk remove die cmne...

after break ngn die,ade la jgk yg nk kwn2 ngn sy,tp sy x pcye ade ke org yg btol2 nk kwn ngn sy sbb diri sy, bkn sbb nk amik ksmpatan..bile ade org nk kwn2 ngn sy,skjp je hbungan tu,sy tros xnk proceed..sy ragu2 dgn niat diorg tu..ade ke org kt dunia ni nk kwn ngn sy sbb diri,dlmn sy..kalau nk diikutkn, mmg xde la kot..tgok la zmn skrg,guys prefer mcm mne..ohho..sy cume org biase sje..sy bkn dlm ktegori yg "..."(guess what?)boring punye boring..sy search la lgu2 yg best..as motivation pd sy..nk tau x lagu pe yg pling dekat dgn sy??
 here it is:

Someone Like You (Adele)

I heard that you're settled down That you found a girl and you're married now I heard that your dreams came true Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you

Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me, it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you, too Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

You know how the time flies Only yesterday was the time of our lives We were born and raised in a summer haze Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me, it isn't over yet

Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you, too Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah

Nothing compares, no worries or cares Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you, too Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

p/s: enjoy yeah!

wassalam,xoxo

hari ini ape mau cerite..

slm..hey yo..sori lame x update kamu wahai miss huda_nhy :) last week cuti rye haji+mid term break..rse cm skjap je cuti..sgt x best okeh...rse cm mls nk blik mlake.n hadapi realiti yg sebnar =kebosanan+kesorangan la..

this post bkn ntuk sy story psl thp kebosanan sy ke ape..cume nk ckp sikit......sikit je..x lebey x kurang la..ari ni mood sy mcm di awang-awangan..x tau la knape...td g klas sorg2..nyanyi lagu sorg2..dengan girangnya...rse mcm fallen in love..tp bukan la..maybe sbb td 1 klas kot..hehe..rse mcm td jln sorg2 dgn kegedikkan je..haha..ari ni je kot mcm ni..so,HUDA(ckp dkt diri sndiri..hehe) kne get ready k to face anything that might be happened=grammar slh ke?betulkan sy if slh..hehe..

mestiiiiii after mid term ni byk assgment yg mnnti sy..oh tidakkk..haruslahkan,bukan student namenye lau x dpt assgment yg menimbun..

now,time is running out..i need to move faster supaya x hilang waktu keemasan itu...time to sleep la kesygan...
so,before tido,igt2 balik sama ade kite ade wt slh kt org,or org de wt slh kt kite,then maafkan diorg tu..bru leh tdo dgn aman..bubye..daaaa
salam,xoxo,hudhuda

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slm..hye to spe2 yg snggah blog sy x bpe ni..huhu..urm, sy ni seorg pmrhati,bkn pmrhati politik ye...sy suke observe skeliling sy,sy sntasa buat analisa and compare dgn diri sy..kire muhasabah diri jgk la..muhasabah kn mrgkumi 3 prkre ni..(pndpt sy sje)..
sbnryne, sy skrg sgt bosn dgn life sy,sy dh tau arh tuju sy untuk ape, tp sy x trmotivated untuk cpai sume tu..bg sy, untuk motivate kn diri sndri, kite kne lhat ape yg org dh buat untuk cpai ape yg die nk,kite kne dgr jtuh bgun die, dan rse kn ape yg die lalui..
sy ini tidak lah pndai,tp kite sbg manusia msti nk sesuatu yg dpt buat kite bgge bukan..?dan yg trutama mk ayh kite..kwn trbaik sy ade yg bg moral support pd sy..die sntiase igtkn sy jgn hiraukn sekeliling sy,sbb sy sng down,sy bkn jeles dkt mreke yg brjye ni..tp sy rse sy ni bodoh sgt ke smpai x leh jd mcm  mreke..
bile down,kite msti dgr ayt2 klise..kalian fikir la ayt klise tu mcm mne ye..dan maaf,sy bnci ayt klise tu :)
urm, sy ni sntiase x brpuas ati..sy akui knyataan ini..bkn brmksud sy menidakkan ape yg sy dh dpt slme ini..cume, kalau boleh,sy nk lebih..sy nk lg baik..untuk sy dan fmily sy..urm,tp sume tu x kn dpt kalau xde usaha..mcm mne sy nk usaha ye sedangkan sekeliling sy ini sgt serabut..msing2 xde usha untuk mnjdi lbih baik..sy boleh jd gile mcm ni..tlong la,sy cume hrpkn our life get much better than this time..bile ye kesedaran tu akn dtg pd diorg..?? sy akn stop dprd trtnye2 soaln ini,bile mreka ade kesedaran kt diri diorg..
p?s: elok x klu sy story psl fmily sy?to what extent sy boleh story ye?ape pndpt kalian??

tggu esk pgi..

slm..sdg tggu esk pgi..sbb pe?of course la sbb nk blik cti rye..mls nk story2 psl blik cti ni sbb dh rmai org update status kt fb sprti'home sweet home'..pkare yg sme je..urm, sbnrnye ssh nk tdo la..sy,kalau nk g kt sesuatu tmpt je, msti tdo x lena,mkn x kyg..sy mcm tu..sy mcm nervous pkir ape yg akn sy hdpi, ape yg sy akn buat..die mcm perasaan yg x sbr nk tggu..huhu..ape2 je la kn..sje je merepek..anyway, sy skrg ni  trtggu siape mr right sy,adekah die..ataupun die yg di sne..siape ye die tu..:) k la..time to sleep..if sy de kelapangan,sy akn share ssuatu yg mnarik dgn kalian..
ok,sleep tight,daaaa..salam, xoxo,huda_nhy

pukul 2 pg...aku x tido lg..aku menangis sendiri

sy skrg sprti gmbr diats dlm mse 1 mggu

slm..slmt awl pagi.. :( sy tibe2 rse tension yg amat..sbb mggu ni..ni tgh stdy,boring..x msok2 pon..sbjek yg sy tgh stdy,x trcapai dek akal sy...byg kn 4 tests within 1 week..boleh gile..ni pon sy sje nk post kt sini..to reveal my current situation..

xde keje..

lepak di i-city

barbeque time

posing saja

convo same2

mcm kembar x?

mid valley dgn mira

dimana sifat itu..

slm...hye kpd anda yg tgh sggah kt page sy..x de la menarik sgt pun..bru bgon ni..huhu..ari ni byk bnde nk kne setel..but i'm not in the mood la...sbb itu la sy melalut ni..next week, 3 tests..oh oh..boleh ke sy...erm..sbnrnye sy tibe2 tringat kt 1 perististiwa kt melaka central...tgh sbok bli tket nk blik..ade 2 org hamba Allah ni,dok sibuk bergurau antara 1 sama lain..tibe2 sy trnmpk mereka ni pergi kacau 1 org hamba Allah yg keadaan nye x sempurna..maksud disini, die dikurniakan tnpa tgn(insaf sy,ade juge org yg lagi ssh dari kite yg sempurna sifat)2 hamba Allah ini,bergurau2 dengan die ni,yg mana bagi sy sgt mengaibkan and kurang ajar..mcm mane?mereka pergi usik2 and pegang2 bhgian bwh..sy xdpt nk cte details sbb hal ni x manis untuk bercerita..so, org yg tiada tgn ni tdk dpt nk menepis dan juge melawan balik..anda fikir la,betapa teruknye prangai mereka 2 org ni..dimana ye sifat perikemanusiaan mereka ni..pdhal mereka ni manusia..2 hmba Allah ni bkn dri kalangan remaja,tapi golongan DEWASA yg boleh fikir jauh ke depan...DAN MERUPAKAN ORG MELAYU..sy sntiasa memerhati gelagat manusia disekeliling sy,dan ape yg boleh sy rumuskn disini,sgt sedih melihat gelagat org kite..sape yg sy mksudkan?anda fikir la sendiri..
sekian,xoxo :)

What A Friend For?

salam..seperti yg dh state kt title tu,'what a friend for'..sume org ade punya kawan msing2..mcm2 istilah kite ltak untuk tunjukkan betapa akrabnya kite dgn seseorg yg kite aggp kwn baik,mcm mmbe kmceng,mmbe kawteam, bff(best friends forever) and ade jgak 'kesayangan'-hehe..sape la ni kn :) 

tapi,pnah x kite pkir or expect yg kite x kn dpt replace tmpt best friends kite ni..sbnrnye kite mmg ssh nk jmpe org yg boleh ngam ngn kite..x sume org boleh accept kite..mcm tu lah ape yg sy rse skrg ni..

dulu,one of my friends,pesan jgn rsau kt our friendship,sy mmg rsau..bukan sume org mcm kwn kite yg ade skrg ni..until now sy x jmpe lg mmbe bru to be one of my best friends kt kmpus ni...sgt sedih ok..feels like i'm loser..dimana ye kwn yg btol2 bleh lpak kt ktil n baring same2..mnyenangkan kite bile bersedih or risau..uitm jgke je yg sy jmpe semue tu..and i'm grateful because i have this kind of friends..

it's totally differs right now,smenjak sy dduk dkt AYAM ni(jgn slh fhm ye, short form for apartmen yayasan melaka la) sy cume seorang je pergi ke kmpus(dekat je..) tp x best la..sorang2..dan sy rse sy amt berbeza lau nk dibandingkan mse zmn kt utim jgke..sy low profil,x cmpur sgt ngn classmates...lau ade pon dgn mmbe group assignment je..sy mcm ade rse mls nk bcmpur ngn org..mmbe baik sy dri jke pon ade..tp diorg sume tu x sme course ngn sy......bile fikir dan fikir,sy slalu muhasabah diri,maybe this is the right time to be independent and move on through my own way..

  last,sy suke poem ni..

friendship is love but not in love
friendship is a secret never to be told
friendship is a shoulder to cry on
friendship is not having to say sorry but do
friendship is not judging no matter what
friendship is someone to run too when things are tough
friendship is a hand to hold when things are so rough
friendship is someone to laugh with not at you
friendship is just knowing they are there
my friend is all of these hope you have one just like her.

kite memang selalu gduh kn kesayangan..

p/s: ignore saja grammar itu..only use broken English :)

in front of people

Hye,Salam sume..sampai sekarang, saya still not able to speak in front of people,wlupun dgn classmates sndiri..apatah lagi, strangers...lagi la x trcakap dibuatnye...actually,sy x confident bile communicate dgn orang..sume nye sbb dulu sy slalu kena ejek..tp x bmksud dulu sy nerd ok..dulu mulut sy jht skit...selamba je..tp bile dh smbung, i'm very surprised that ade org lg advance dri sy, ade org lagi bagus dri sy..mase tu ramai batch dari area selangor,kl..so,x kan la nk lwn diorg kn...hehe..so dari situ la saya slowly brubah....brubah ape?x tau la brubah ape..

bile cakap psl communication ni, student biase kne wt presentation,kn?ni la bnde yg pling wt sy gerun..trgagap2 nk ckp...fikir grammar sume tu..huhu..sy x ske kne mcm tu...so, what should i do to improve it?erm,pndai2 la kau huda...

last words, kalau gossip,sy yg pling laju...

wedding..

just nk share with u guys,,sgt sedih time ni..

bile ada mase..

bile ade mase free,aku jmpe kau..bile ade mase,kite dicuss assignment..bile ade mase kite hang out same2..tapi ade ke mase tu..??mase mkin lame makin cepat..terkejar2 aku..sume benda nak buat dalam 1 ari,still x sempat..how to solve it,huh?ni pon x smpat jgak...

saya sedang berduka...

result yg diharapkn tdak dpt dicapai akhirnye...so,sy akn berkabung smpai bile..result yg diberi dy rse cm x brbaloi je..mcm ape je..cbe la bg ok skit..sy x ksah org nk ckp sy ni x bsyukur ke ape..sy sbnrnye frust sgt..sy slhkn sume nye..sy slhkn diri sy..agknye lau student 2 byk ckp ngn lec,or pndai bkate2,bru dpt a..mcm sy ni,pndiam,so maybe de lec mark paper sy tragak2 nk bg mrkah brpe kt sy...ahh.persetankn sume 2..sbb dh lpas..so, skrg ni sy mmg xde mood lau org tnye psl study sy..sy rse trcabar sgt...

pejam dan celik..

skrg..msa berlalu dgn pntas..kite yg kne kjar mse..dulu..kite relaks je,x begelut dgn mcm2 hal yg mne kite rse masa 2 ade lg,ade lg..tp skrg..kite betol memerlukan 1 ruang, 1 tempoh bile nk buat sesuatu..betol x?that's my opinion la...skjap je kite dh degree...n skjp je kite dh abes kuliah..dan sekejap umur kite pon dh berubah..huhu..x dpt bygkan la bile dh msok working enviroment nti...

lastly, x percaya umur dah 20++.. ;p

xoxo,huda loneranger

r.i.n.d.u

salam....hye semua...skrg my friends semua busy tgh final.msing2 struggle dptkn pointer yg lg baik..wish u luck guys...

actually..bile dh hbis 2 paper..tibe2,rindu lak environment kt uitm jgke..rndu kt suasana students msing2 bsing nk msok dewan..tggu turn nk msok..kwn2 pulak, msing2 ckp tkot2...pak guard lak sbok2 tgok shsiah rpe diri...rndu dkt lecturer2..n x lupe jgak..pakcik2 ptong rumput...haha...sbb bile bgon pg nk g klas..sy suke bau rumput bile dh kne ptong ngn mesin 2..plik kn?? ;D

 tp,mmg campus life la...kt sni..mmg sgt2 beza...

LAST WORD: SAYA RINDU KALIAN SEMUA....sgt....

seorang free thinker..

cmne sy nk wt eh...sy bdepan dgn seorg mmbe yg free thinker..mksodnye..pmikiran die bebas, just blndaskan logik akal fkiran..die bkn blndaskan agame or yg swktu dgnye..ble die rse dlm 1 perkara 2 x logik,die xkn pcye..ksian org cmni..tp dlm mse yg sme..sy kne kuat kn pgangan sy..coz tkot terpesong...
mudah2an...dielakkan..k la..bubye...
;)

White Shoes & The Couples Company - Senandung Maaf

ske sgt lagu ni ;)

penat,kepala serabut..

hye my sweetie..sori lme x update awk ye..sy bsy sgt..kemas umah yg sntiasa nmpk x kmas..for 24 hours..gram sy...xde spe tlog tgok2kn rumah..nmpk serabut..seserabut kpale sy..sy pnat la...pnat ngn life sy...always kne mgemas..x pnh tgok sy snag ke...skrg ni sy pkir mcm2...nk blik mlake 1 hal...group asgment 1 hal..pas bnjir ni,sy mcm dh mls nk blik mlake,g smbung kuliah sy..mls nk dok umah swe kt mlake 2...ade bad instinct la...sy mls dh nk cmpur ngn mmbe2 sy kt c2..mmbe claz ok...mmbe yg 24 jam tu yg lemah..genai la sy mcm ni lau follow diorg sgt...sy nk wt hal sy sndri..sy dh mkin bosn kt sne..feel nk study 2 cm xde je..sy pon x tau la..k la sweetie..hope awk phm isi ati sy..kt awk je la sy express my feeling...i'll update you later k..LOVE YOU SWEETIE..

MAKIN TENSION NGN NEW LIFE SY ;(

KAWAN DUNIA AKHIRAT

Hi..!hello..!title di ats bkn brmksud ntok menidakkn sume bff sy..remember that,u always in my heart..bg sy,sume kwn2 sy baik..baik dlm friendship ktorg..jjur n x ckp blakang..mreka myedarkn spe diri sy.hehe..disni sy bkn nk cite psl bff sy..cukuplah mreka di hti sy..x prlu feeling sgt meraung tntg ketidakberadaan mreka di sisi sy di mlake..hehe

KAWAN DUNIA AKHIRAT?ape mksud 2..sy de post di fb sy..mcm2 responds yg sy trime..ade yg x stju dgn statement sy..coz diorg slh phm ape yg sy mksodkn..sbb yg tau hnye sy ngn tuhan je..sy x kte SAPE2 yg sy labelkn kwn dnia akhirat..sy tujukn kpd APE..ape itu mrujuk kpd tuhan sy,kitab2 yg leh guide sy ke arh kebaikan and amalan2 sy..n, yg ini la akn mnjd kwn dnia akhirat sy..sy akn bljar slowly..sy mule sdar dulu sy x bpe ksah soal ini...skrg perasaan tu dtg dgn plahan2..lg bgos dpd baik mnjdi jht..lg bgos bkn..?

AND LASTLY,DOAKAN SY YE.....

hanya padaMU..

hye..bpe ari ye sy x update diary sy ni..huhu..sori la miss diary,sy de emergency,thats y x taip pe2..

        Banjir la..trok sgt2..tp sy kne trime jgak..sbb sume 2 kje Allah..akhirnye..sy dh sedar kkuasaanNya..sy trgamam tgok kebesaran Allah..Dia trunkan dugaan kt sy n 1 fmily ntuk m'igtkn sy padaNya..sy rase sy btol2 kerdil n x dpt nk wt pe2 time tgah trok 2..sy igt mati je..yg sy bleh wt cume mohon prtolongan pd Nya..

        Time ksih Ya Allah,atas pertolonganMu slamatkan hamba2Mu ini dari segala keburukan..Time kasih Ya Allah ats ingatanMu kepada kami..Sesungguhnya kami lalai dengan segala kehidupan di dunia ciptaanMu..Sungguh besar kuasaMu Ya Allah...bantu la kami dalam meneguhkan keimanan kami kepadaMu..sesungguhnya kami sentiasa melakukan kekhilafan..

BUAT PERINGATAN SAYA
detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu

sudah..cukup2 la..

       sy dh pnt ngn hdup sy slme 22 thun 1 blan ni..kli ni..biar sy lak yg decide,sy xnk lagi jd huda yg dlu which is trpkse let go ape yg sy tringin nk wt hnye sbb pkir org lain..

      time skola dlu sy x dpt join tuition kt luar,sbb mse 2 yg skola 6 org..plak 2 sy berdua ngn twin sy..mcm mne la kn nk byr yuran sume..so,ayh cm xde kte pon nk hntr kami g tuition..my eldest sis amik class tuition..die 2 lau nk something..die nk jgak..die pduli hape..kami brdua slalu mgalah ntok die&adk2 yg lain...g camp x dpt..g trip pon x dpt..my eldest sis 2,join je ape2 activites kt school,die x nk miss pon..ktorg yg due ni pon nk jgak..tp tpksa lupe kn je..sumenye sbb money issue..

      lau mnx permission kt ayh psl nk join outdoor activities yg skola wt,msti ayh ckp'x yh je la,mhl tau..kite x ckup duit,adin lg,azam lg..korg lak 2-2 nk prgi..'bile sy n dila(twin sy) dgr ayh ckp mcm 2,ktorg cpt2 msok dlm blik,n bla bla bla..sakit ati tau..kdang2 2,kami protes,xnk wt kje umah..tp x brjaya..huhu..kami mls nk pkir sgt la..wt sakit ati je..

      skrg ni la,mse yg sesuai ntuk sy fulfill kn ape yg sy..sy nk rse sume yg kwn2 sy dpt dr fmily msing2..wlaupun sy x dpt sume 2 dr fmily sy mcm kwn2 sy,at least sy de effort sy sndri..n yg pntig,sy x ske nk hbeskn duit mk ayh sy..
 :]

bkn yg kli kedua..

cti dh start..smlm,blik je rumah, terkejut skjp..rumah dh mcm pameran...tnsion nye idup...lau skit2 bleh la accept lg..ni x,byk gler mural...sakit jiwa sy...cti ni cnfirm,sy pnt...byk sgt kje..kje rumah,asgment...hurm..mcm mne ek nk settelkn btol2..

    skrg ni..kt sgmt,ujan je..rsau pon ade..kang x blik mlake aku ni..mne x rsau,ujan je nti kang bnjir la ntok kli kedue..dh la kt kg2 sblh,air dh naik..hope xjd sprti yg sy jangke..